The Light In Him
The light in him is buried under the remnants of the powder and smoke That he uses to comfort and cushion his failures The light in him is made opaque as it drowns in the left over ethanol That he consumes to forget the rejections and regretful outbursts of retaliation against it There was a bright light that shone from his entire being His mother will tell you His friends, past friends would agree too Something happened or Perhaps something festered Under the niceness Under the manners Under the submission Perhaps he projected happiness to hide the deep sense of inadequacy that he felt Perhaps it festered behind the absence of a belief system in self and the helpful presence of divinity that desires to support him Perhaps it grew larger in the absence of strength to make the choice to feel his pain, sit with it and speak to it Perhaps covering it up was the solution the television taught Drugs and alcohol he thought, soothes and weakens the pain A way to umbrella himself from his in